Friday, February 25, 2011

Whenua Betrayal

There is so much that I want to say, so much that I want to do but I still can’t wrap my head around this disaster wrecking havoc on my country. It just doesn’t make sense, disasters happen to other people, other nations, just other. Not us.



When I was at school in Taranaki, we’d have regular drills for earthquakes. The school bell would ring and we would drop whatever we were doing and hit the floor under our desks. The bell would stop and we’d arrive on the field in lines of two, hoping that we would be the lucky class to win the prize for doing the drill in the orderly and fast fashion. There were earthquakes but damage was rare. There was an earthquake when I was in Wairoa over Anniversary weekend, but it was only a 4.3 so I didn’t even get out of bed. My cousin awoke in a panic because she grew up here in Auckland and so didn’t know what to do. I assured her that if it was bigger, I would’ve dragged her out of bed to the doorframe. Until last September, people in Christchurch hadn’t had an earthquake but because of our building codes and the time it struck (early morning – late enough for party people to have drunkly stumbled home, but early enough that early morning people weren’t up yet), no one died. There was significant damage caused by the 7.1 quake, but no one died. We patted ourselves on the back, made noises about how well prepared we were, about how invincible we were.

Aftershocks came and went, some more places were damaged but we remained solid. There was a 4% chance that a 6 or higher quake would strike, and people were confident.

At 12.51pm on Tuesday 22nd February, Christchurch was struck again – not by yet another gentle rolling aftershock, but by a 6.3 monster. This quake was only 5km deep, and only 10km out of the city. It happened as people were out at lunch, in meetings, at school, driving, being tourists, just being people. The violent ferocity of the quake was nearly twice the force due to gravity. In those few seconds, buildings were brought down, people were thrown from one place to another, objects in houses leapt from their resting places with devastating effects. There have been some harrowing stories of people in the CTV building, in the Pyne and Gould building, in the Press Building, on the street.



More photos here. I won't share the ones of grieving people, because it's part of the media I can't agree with, but they are heartbreaking.

In a country of only 4.2 million, every one knows someone who has been affected by this – my family down there are okay, their house is severely damaged (they are near the epicentre), my friends families are ok, but we still don’t know the full list of the ones who are gone and the missing so we still don’t know.

Video of the moments immediately after the quake

I get that to the rest of the world, 113 might not seem like a lot. But Christchurch only has a population of 390,300. That’s one death for every 3534 people. If this was extrapolated to the population of London -that’s nearly 4000 people, to New York – 2000 people, to Sydney – 1200 people. But New Zealand as a whole is not that big, we are just the size of Sydney (4.2million) so the 6 degrees of separation is only two. With family down there, it is almost certain that they know someone who died.

It is heartbreaking to see this land, this land that I love and my forbearers have died for, rise up against us. I’m not sure this is understandable, but we have a very close association with the whenua, our land. I feel betrayed.

I cried, listening to this song on the radio today. This is New Zealand's National Anthem, usually not sung past the first two verses, but today it was right that they sung all the way through.

Kia Kaha, Kia Mana, Kia Arohanui, Christchurch.
Me ngā whakaaro, inoi aroha atu.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

FFS Nature, back off Christchurch.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Spitting Tacks

I have almost given up on making plans; 2011 seems to want to have it's way with me, without allowing me to participate. I was supposed to move to Brisvegas in early January, but then I ruptured my ACL playing touch. Determined that it was nothing more than a flesh wound, I discarded the crutches a couple of days later, and went back to work (mocked rather mercilessly by my colleagues for the limp, which was infinitely better than sympathy). Finally got in to see the ortho surgeon six weeks later, MRI just before Christmas, saw ortho surgeon again a month later (19th of Jan), gave me a date for surgery of the 7th of March and so I waited for approval from ACC (NZ's Accident Cover) and rearranged my life to fit with this timeframe. Two weeks later, I had nary received a letter of acknowledgement, so I go call ACC - only to be told that they haven't received anything from the ortho. Spitting tacks, I call the secretary and ask why. Apparently it wasn't sent - despite being dictated as I sat there in the appointment on the 19th. Letter gets sent the following day (what a coincidence!) and I am told that it will take two to four weeks.

I call today, and apparently it's going to take 20 working days from when they sent the letter off for review. When was that? The fucking 11th. There is no chance in me having the surgery on the 7th now (although I cried on the phone to the secretary, so she's holding it open for me), a small but unlikely chance on the 21st, but most likely on the 4th of April.

Based on a surgery date of the 7th, I finally booked a ticket to Brisbane for the 11th of April. Anyone see an issue here? So not only is this not my fault, but I am going to have to pay for a change in date, and because there is a job which I hope I get I need to be in Brisbane by the last week of April, I am going to need to upgrade to business class. FFS, I would be fine with this if I had done something to cause it to be delayed, but I didn't and there is nothing I can do to push it along.

I just about had a panic attack in the office today, trying to work it all out. I want, need, wish it to come right, and happen as I had it planned. Please.

My day was saved by my friend txting me to tell me that her first baby scan went well, and she's a few weeks further along than she thought. Hurrah!